Alicia Florrick.

I don’t watch regular TV or cable. Mostly because my nervous system can’t handle it. I’m the one who likes to purchase a series and watch it over and over again. There’s something comforting when I know the characters and the storylines and I can fast-forward through upcoming scenes that disturb me – scenes of violence, bullying, and injustice. I’m re-watching The Good Wife now and as I sit with the main character, Alicia Florrick, I imagine that this is what it looks and feels like to have a defined Solar Plexus. I study her deeply – every facial expression when she’s in the middle of conflict or confrontation. Her ability to hold tension, calmly and without any haste to move through or beyond it boggles my mind because she doesn’t run away and she always speaks her truth – the exact opposite behavior of how I’ve been conditioned. My undefined Solar Plexus studies her movements, her emotions, her dialog as something to aspire to, even if all I will ever be able to do is mimic it. Those of us with an undefined or open Solar Plexus (the difference being if there are any gate activations) are often helpless in picking up the feelings of those around us – others’ feelings bleed into our space and get amplified, often without our awareness. It’s what makes us great empaths, but horrible caretakers of our own emotional wellness. Becoming aware that the emotional distress you’re feeling may not be your own is the first step to setting the most important boundaries that protect your sanity and your soul.